Friday, January 1, 2016

Happy Real Year



This is going to probably be the realest post that I have ever done, and I admit cause I have partaken in the drinking of 5 bottles of spirits this New Years Eve, and yes I am an Entrepreneur professional, but I am also a human being and I am an artist, and so much more, and I have a couple things to get off of my chest.   I am absolutely determined to not go into the new year with BS from anyone which includes my family.  Why is it freaking New Years and instead of my Husband walking to me and giving me a new years kiss he is screaming at me to come here, and because I don't get up he just sits back down?  Whatever happened to fighting for what you love, or going after what you want?  Especially since your wife has pointed out a few things that she would like you for you to work on, and you have agreed that you need to.  Yes, I could of gotten out of my deep seating couch sectional experience and simply gotten up as was requested of me.  However, I have said time, and time again after cooking a full turkey, dressing, baked macaroni, and collard greens, ham, and sweet potatoes meal all by myself for Thanksgiving and Christmas that I wasn't doing anything but sitting on my ass for new years, and thats exactly what I was going to do.  Excuse me, MF!  I'm tired too!  Why do I have to always meet your ass half way, 3/4 of the way or all the way?  Can you do something on your own for fucking once?  Yeah, yeah, anybody that knows me is probably shaking their heads right now, and calling me all types of hypocrite, and Te, thats not how a marriage is supposed to me. Shawnte you're not supposed to put you marriage out there like that, but you know what who's there for me right now to vent to about this MF? Nobody! So this is what I'm doing to  make myself feel better about this asswhole.  Deal with it!  The mission of my business is to make women feel like they are worthy of being worshiped.  To think about themselves for change, self care!  Care for your loved ones around you; nurture them, love on them, but also don't forget to do the same for yourselves, and sometimes you just have to vent, and right now I'm doing just that.  This is my mission for my business, because this is what I'm passionate about its something that I also want for my life, for myself.  Maybe I'm wrong talking about my not knowing how to handle his liquor husband, but this is what makes me feel good at this moment, and him, and anyone else that doesn't like it can kiss my you know what!

This is a great way to start the new year, but to make it positive here's to standing up for myself, and working towards filling my empty cup! Happy New Year!!!


5 comments:

  1. I hope it gets better as the year progresses!

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    1. I hope so too Melissa, but bad days happen, good days happen too. I talked to him after sobering up, and we worked it out :-)

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  2. I hope it gets better as the year progresses!

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  3. Thank you for your honesty...I LOVE IT!!! I often time say or feel the same way too but don't have the guts to say it to "him"...I'm not married, that is the only difference!!! I give you major props!!! Will continue to follow a "real" person like you!!!😉 and thanks or your comment!!!

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    1. Thanks for reading and commenting Shanda. It took a lot for me to put it out there like this, but I've learned that I'm not alone in how I feel, and the only way things will get better is by talking things out, and not hiding or ignoring my feelings. This is my form of communication it helps me in talking to him.

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